This adoption journey is full of ups and downs. We’ve been waiting just short of 15 months now. Last week, we got an email that our agency is getting out of the adoption business.

Um, wasn’t expecting that.

Because we’ve been with them so long, we were told they’ll continue to work with us until our home study expires in February. And after that they’ll renew our home study but won’t be a part of the adoption process otherwise. They’re no longer taking on new families, either.

That leaves us working to find a new agency, and fast. Seeing as we’re going to have to start this process all over again, the less time wasted the better. I feel exhausted. And frustrated. A little mad. A little excited, too. I’m mad and frustrated at the way in which all of this happened, but maybe it will be better for us in the long run. Maybe we will find a match faster.

I’ve spent most of this past week calling agencies around the state and the country, trying to find the best fit for us. It’s nerve-wracking and man, I dread having to start most of this process over. This week I need to create profile books and finish a presentation for our agency’s conference this Saturday. Ironically, I was already slated to present on “options outside of our agency,” but now of course that presentation is going to be…timely.

We’d appreciate your good thoughts as we go through this transition period.